I got back from my vacation, worked a week, had a weekend, and am working another week.
How time flies!
Wouldn't you just love a picture from my vacation? Well, maybe. I tend to be horribly lazy at putting pictures on here. Gee maybe I am just too shy!
Something happened last week and this weekend. It was sad. Sorry but I can't really talk about it on here.
It finally hit me that I am wrong for the job that I am in. Or maybe the job I am in is wrong for me. For the longest time I have tried and tried and tried to make it fit but no matter how I stretch no matter how I move around it just does not fit.
I have just been so angry these past couple of days. I am finding reasons why my job doesn't work for me. All that accomplishes is a bad mood. Now I would much rather be in a good mood and thriving while being productive. So I have worked on it.
Here is the outcome:
I don't have to find any more reasons why I need to leave my job. I only need one. The place I am at not is not conducive to my productivity.
I should be learning, working, and feeling desired and needed. I don't and am not. So I am gone.
The flame has been turned on once again. My job search is on. Once that flame starts I find my new job and I go. There is no stopping me now.
When something happens at work right now I have a thick coat of Teflon on. Nothing is going to stick to me. I will just be professional and do my work. But my mind will be on my job search. If something pisses me off I will just channel it to my job search.
F the place I work at. (hmm that feels good)
What is funny is that the old place I worked at has a job opening and I would actually consider going back. The reasons I left that job are gone now.
Gotta go.
'Till later.
2 comments:
Hey, hope you enjoyed your vacation : )
I've recently signed up at Blogspot and came across your blog page. I find your blogs very interesting, your insights on Bipolar disorder and mental health from personal experience are very refreshing to read.
I'll get to the point, because you no doubt are wondering who I am and why I have sent you this massive comment. My name is Sarah. My husband and I have recently set up an online mental health community, called The Hall of Heroes. Your blogspot shows that you have a wonderful way of expressing yourself and I was wondering whether you would consider joining our very new community You have the qualities we need to get us off the ground. We are trying to find people that actually live with mental health issues and don't just spurt all that psycho-babble that psychiatrists and therapists spew out of their mouths, and I thought maybe you would consider taking a look at our forum maybe even join up. Should you have the time and desire to do so that is.:- ) If you choose to, you can visit us here..
http://chaosburnt.com/CBMentalHealth/index.php
Your participation and support would be greatly appreciated and welcomed, but if you are not interested, then no worries.
Whatever you choose to do, be well and safe, take care
Sarah (Jord at the Hall of Heroes)
Thanks I will take a look at the site.
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